Monday, June 29, 2009

What Should I Do?

I have been a bad blogger lately. I haven't been posting near as much as I have in the past. I think I am still somewhat in disbelief that we are pregnant and, nonetheless, with twins. One moment I am laughing hysterically because I am so thankful that IVF #5 worked and that we are pregnant with twins. The next moment I am worrying about pre-term labor, preemies in the NICU and being put on bed rest.

I have also been extremely tired. In the afternoon when L goes down for his nap (when I have normally used this time to do computer stuff, ie; blog, IVFC, email, etc.) I have been hanging out on the couch and resting. I am thankful that I am just tired and not sick and nauseous all of the

I have also been reading a lot. I just finished "When You're Expecting Twins, Triplets and Quads" by Dr. Luke and I just started reading "Having Twins and More" by Elizabeth Noble. I have a couple more books that I plan on reading in the next couple of months as well.

I have been thinking a lot as well. About this blog and what to do with it. I love blogging and I LOVE my blogland friends....all of them. But mostly the ones still in the IF trenches. The ones whom I cheer on every day. I check their blogs religiously for new developments in their journeys and wish nothing but the best for them. Anyway, I digress. I don't know what to do with this blog. I want to continue to blog about my pregnancy and daily happenings, but I don't know if this is the place to do it. Will all of my blog friends appreciate that I would like to turn this blog from one of struggles with secondary IF to pregnancy? I know that because I am pregnant with twins that it does not mean I will have two healthy babies. I know I have a long ways to go until I get to the finish line of holding my babies in my arms. There is so much that can go wrong. (Just for the record, I am not being pessimistic, but rather a realist, which is a whole other blog post!)

And what about others who have gotten pregnant and have disappeared from blogland altogether? Yes, there have been a few. I was so angry that they decided not to blog anymore. After you get so involved and attached to them and their story and you want to cheer them on while they carry their babies and then...POOF! They're gone! I don't want to be one of those people, but I also don't want to be one that hangs around if no one wants me to either.

So, it's up to you, my dear blog friends. What should I do?


Jill M. said...

Definitely keep your blog going! Like you said, it is so annoying to get attached to someone's story and then have them disappear. I'd like to keep up with you and continue to cheer you on through each milestone. You can always change your blog title, maybe "found a another angel".

kayjay said...

Oooh! I like Jill M's suggestion! "Found another angel" has such a nice ring to it :). I also agree that you shouldn't stop blogging. If someone was really bothered by the fact that you have become pregnant, they could just stop reading your blog. For me, I would love to keep following your story and I know all too well that getting the positive beta is only step 1 in a long journey to baby. If you disappear, it will also perpetuate the sense of isolation for us left in IF once you get to mommyland, you don't want to have anything to do with us IFs anymore. And I know you don't feel that way. So, please keep blogging okay?

Bobbi said...

I say keep the blog. I don't think it is rubbing it in anybodys face that is still struggling with IF. If anything I think is gives people hope. With all you have been through and then in the end to get pregnant shows people it can still happen for them.

Sue said...

I think you should keep the blog! I like checking in and seeing how things are going with you. Its fine if the posts are fewer and far between...I think that happens to everyone. I also do find it kind of annoying when people are like, "okay, I'm pregnant...see ya!" Plus, you may find a day when you actually want to share something and, if you've closed down your blog, who will you share it with? hmmm....? :-) I'm glad all is going so well!

Deb said...

As you know, I struggled with the same question recently and decided to keep blogging. Your pregnancy, your success should be inspiring to others, not hurtful. Those who just want to see failures are just looking for misery, we all need to know that misery does come to an end and happiness can be found if one is persistant.

Anonymous said...

Blog away about anything you'd like! The people who want to keep reading, will...others who find it difficult to read might choose to stop reading, but I'm sure will still be happy for your success!


Anonymous said...

I think you should continue to blog. The pregnancy journey of someone who has suffered multiple ivf failures is different than those who did not struggle. It will also be a good place to vent your fears, joys and everything in between. I like the idea of possibly changing the title.
Did I recommend the book Juggling Twins to you yet on IVFC yet? I can't remember. It's funny and has great tips and DH is actually on the couch right now reading it.
Jen (Cincy)

Tom and Margit said...

I agree Kris! It gives other people struggling hope. You went through so much and are pregnant now...with twins! Share the joy and I love Jill's name change :)


Anonymous said...

I agree, please keep blogging. I love the idea of "kayjay" and changing your blog name! You are an inspiration and I believe a lot of people, including myself, enjoy reading your updates as you progress through this journey. As friends, we want to see eachother have success and happiness & what a wonderful way to share it with those who truly care about you Kris! :)