I have been a bad blogger lately. I haven't been posting near as much as I have in the past. I think I am still somewhat in disbelief that we are pregnant and, nonetheless, with twins. One moment I am laughing hysterically because I am so thankful that IVF #5 worked and that we are pregnant with twins. The next moment I am worrying about pre-term labor, preemies in the NICU and being put on bed rest.
I have also been extremely tired. In the afternoon when L goes down for his nap (when I have normally used this time to do computer stuff, ie; blog, IVFC, email, etc.) I have been hanging out on the couch and resting. I am thankful that I am just tired and not sick and nauseous all of the
I have also been reading a lot. I just finished "When You're Expecting Twins, Triplets and Quads" by Dr. Luke and I just started reading "Having Twins and More" by Elizabeth Noble. I have a couple more books that I plan on reading in the next couple of months as well.
I have been thinking a lot as well. About this blog and what to do with it. I love blogging and I LOVE my blogland friends....all of them. But mostly the ones still in the IF trenches. The ones whom I cheer on every day. I check their blogs religiously for new developments in their journeys and wish nothing but the best for them. Anyway, I digress. I don't know what to do with this blog. I want to continue to blog about my pregnancy and daily happenings, but I don't know if this is the place to do it. Will all of my blog friends appreciate that I would like to turn this blog from one of struggles with secondary IF to pregnancy? I know that because I am pregnant with twins that it does not mean I will have two healthy babies. I know I have a long ways to go until I get to the finish line of holding my babies in my arms. There is so much that can go wrong. (Just for the record, I am not being pessimistic, but rather a realist, which is a whole other blog post!)
And what about others who have gotten pregnant and have disappeared from blogland altogether? Yes, there have been a few. I was so angry that they decided not to blog anymore. After you get so involved and attached to them and their story and you want to cheer them on while they carry their babies and then...POOF! They're gone! I don't want to be one of those people, but I also don't want to be one that hangs around if no one wants me to either.
So, it's up to you, my dear blog friends. What should I do?