End in Sight

[side note: THANK YOU all for your wonderful comments and prayers. It is so nice to feel such wonderful support from all of you. There are a couple of you who don't comment very often and I so thank you for leaving a comment for me during this time. I am cheered to hear from you and you all are helping to lift my spirits each day. I wish you all a wonderful holiday season!]

My labs came back today and they have improved. My platelets are at 157,which is in the normal range, and my ALT and AST liver enzyme levels have improved a little bit also, but they are still out of the normal range. Both boys are continuing to pass each biophysical u/s with 8/8 and they are looking great on the NST monitor each time (they are monitored for one hour each shift). My blood pressure remains in the 110/60s range and my edema is pretty much gone. I no longer have tree stumps for legs and sausages for toes.:)

My OB came in this morning and called me a "Superstar". She said that I am trending in the opposite way that they expect me to. She also commended me on my positive attitude. Apparently she has never seen me sobbing after DH and Logan leave each day:)

We have talked a lot about trying to weigh my health with the health and well-being of the babies. She explained that even though the babies would most likely be okay if we delivered them today she knows that they are a lot better in my belly than being outside of my belly. She knows that we worked hard for these babies and the weight of something going wrong with them if she were to deliver them now is weighing heavily on her. She also is taking into consideration my mental/psychological health in the equation. She knows that it is difficult for me to sit here when I feel completely fine.

After talking about all of this I asked her what the threshold was for delivering these babies. Of course if I start to present more symptoms or the babies start to show signs of distress she will deliver them. If my levels continue to stay as they are she would like to see me get to 35w. She told me to mentally prepare for being here and then delivering at the end of next week. I told her that I didn't want my babies to have a Christmas Eve or Christmas Day birthday and that I would mentally prepare myself to deliver them the Monday following Christmas, but that I wanted to reevaluate next week. I can't tell you how pleased this makes me to have a real, confirmed date and an end in sight. The countdown is on...only 12 days to go!

She is also going to let me do more walking during the day. My previous orders allowed me to get up 1x/shift to walk around the maternity section. She is now going to let me walk 3x/shift. I also get to sit in the chair in my room for up to 30 minutes at a time. Oh, the small pleasures in life!:)

The best news of all perhaps is that as long as my levels continue to stay where they are and they are not declining, she is going to write a pass for me to leave the hospital for 2 hours on Monday night. Logan has his preschool Christmas program that evening and I really want to go. I am so excited that she would let me leave and be able to see my little angel singing his little heart out. It will also be nice to have a change of scenery and to enjoy some of the holiday season by seeing all of the Christmas decorations at the church.

For today, my spirits have been lifted a bit. I can now mentally prepare to be here for the next 12 days plus the 4 days after my c-section. This gives me something else to focus on. I have been thinking of Bri and Andy a lot. I am extremely afraid of becoming sick. Even though I am in the hospital and they are monitoring me closely, it is really difficult to not feel like a shoe is about to drop. And after 36 hours of labor and an emergency c-section with Logan I am really hoping to be somewhat coherent when these boys are born.